Is it just my imagination, or does it smell like freakin bonfire everywhere you go? Those Santa Ana's are really kickin those brushfire smells and stuff around. I swear for like a whole day, I thought my car was burning or something, but I was like, damn, that smells like burning wood...hmmmm.

I wanna leave early...I'm just sitting here, staring at my computer. It's such a nice day outside too...man I wanna go home, I wanna go home! I WANNA GO HOME!!!

I've been reading a lot about people seeing tumbleweeds and whatnot on the street lately. Don't worry, they don't hurt. I've hit a couple on the freeway...it's like a big giant cotton ball coming at you at amazing velocity...no harm will come to you...ha ha ha

Cable just got installed @ my folks' place for the first time. This is the first time we've had cable there in my whole entire life. This is a momentous occassion...bring out the champagne! The Bermudez's have cable! Look out world!!!

I am a speed bump on the I-10, @ 5:30 on a Friday...

First of all, HAPPY B-DAY to my lil sis Caren and Aileen...welcome to the quarter life!!!

We took out Caren for her b-day last night, just to dinner @ Thai BBQ, it was a lot of fun, til my stupid headache episode, but I hadn't laughed that much in a while... We went back to their apt and watched "Love and Basketball" and had some cake. It was cool, real cool.

Smallville was a tad bit of a disappointment last night. Granted, that there was a very hot ass girl, Tamara Feldman, who played the role of Kyla, the crazy Skinwalker, the episode as a whole kinda sucked. Nothing really exciting happened, and of course, as with every similar event in Smallville, any temporary character that finds out about Mr. Kent's lil secret is of course killed, which brings up an interesting topic. Lot's of people have died in this strange lil town ever since the arrival of the meteor rocks. Hello, isn't Smallville a suburb w/ a relatively small population, when is it gonna occur to these people that everyone who gets involved w/ Clark mysteriously dies or something, save for his close friends and family? They can't figure that out? Sheesh, what a bunch of morons...

Strangiosity
Dude when I was going to work this morning, there was a strange stillness in the air as I walked to my car. It was so silent, and just very very well...still. As it IS supposed to rain(I doubt it will tomorrow though), I guess that's what you call the calm before the storm? I've never really had an experience like that, it was pretty cool...I'm like, "OH!! So THIS is what they mean by that!!!" But then again, if it doesn't rain tomorrow, then I was totally wrong.

Everyone that usually joins me on my morning commute has most likely either left to go see their families or are packing and will be en route shortly, because there were NO cars on the road today, well at least on MY way to work. The opposite direction, however, was totally packed as usual. I hope traffic on the way to mom and pop's tonight isn't bad, maybe I'll wait til later...I don't have to do any cooking til early tomorrow anyway...

I was SUPPOSED to go clubbing tonight, but I don't think I'm gonna go anymore, for several reasons: 1) I have an enormous headache that started last night 2) I've been sick for over 2 weeks now and STILL, have not really had any good rest, so I should rest before I go out and play 3) I've been spending way too much damn money lately, I still haven't even finished my X-mas shopping and 4) I might not get to LA in time considering I have to wait for all that traffic to go away, since I have to go past LAX to get to mom and pop's. So ixnay on the clubbing...the clubs ain't goin nowhere...

I'm still crossing my fingers in hopes of a Thanksgiving lunch here at work, I think all hopes of that happening are slowly fading away, as my office is right next to the conference room, where the party would be. Someone brought cookies though...yummmmm.....

Sorry bout the tag board, seems that it is a server-wide problem so it'll be up and running as soon as they get they're crap together. Whew! For a second, I thought it was me!

Is it bad to share things w/ everyone? Because the way that I am, I like to share what's going on in my life w/ my close friends, and I have a few of them. I know there are those that don't really like everyone knowing their business, so if a person like me ever got w/ a person like that...then would shit just hit the fan? I dont' know...just a thought...totally random...seriously.

In the spirit of Saint Nick, to give him(and all of you) ample time to prepare, here is my X-mas wishlist...

These are the things applicable to everyone:
-Wifebeaters, preferable new and size medium and peds(socks)
-some more work slacks(don't have enough)
-some shoes(b-ball and casual dress)
-Short-sleeved button-ups
-A set of socket wrenches
-Other various tools
-Oh, a toolbox
-Books

These, not so much:
May sound corny to you, but hey, whose thoughts are these again?
-For "it" to work out
-That pop will be able to totally take care of himself w/o our help
-For certain people to get jobs
-For certain others to be happier

Reading someone else's blog, it reminded me of something I haven't done in a while:

Thumbs up to...
-The Lakers...Shaq's back baby!!!
-good, no great, company
-$5.99 Sizzler lunch specials
-Short weeks

Thumbs down to
-my stupid tag board
-pessimism
-colds
-wind and dust(not a good combo)
-Short weeks

Deep thoughts....
It takes a big man to cry, but it takes a bigger man to laugh at that man.

"One is the loneliest number..."

I am the GI Joe hiding under your bed...

Ever wonder why some people try to pretend to totally know something about things which they have no clue? Or totally spit out BS to people who DO know something? I mean, don't you realize how incredibly foolish you are making yourself look by doing that? And I've done it, that's why I say it's so foolish. It would be so much simpler to just say, I don't know...and learn more about it. But I think some people just refuse to say those three words, refuse to admit that there exists some genre of knowledge beyond their scope. Too much pride...But shit, if everyone knew everything, there would be no use for other people. And even the knowledge we have now wasn't put there by ourselves, it was learned. I think that if we opened our minds more to the fact that we probably don't know everything and stay eager to learn new things, the world be rid of that much more pretentious bullshit.

The tag-board thing is messed up...I thought it was just mine @ first...but that's how it is on other people's sites, so hopefully I am not alone. I even went to the tagboard website and their shit seems to be messed up too, hopefully it's only a minor and temporary problem...if not, then that whole idea was quite short-lived.

The wind is KICKIN folks...be careful out there! Kinda crazy to see those big trees that are visible from the freeway doubled over like that...wow. And it's really cold in my office, my hands are freezing, I'm trying to type really fast so that they'll warm up. But this weather is craaaazeeeee man. Mother nature is some force...

Finally got my oil changed this morning...it was long overdue, almost a 1000 miles past the checkpoint. I mean, I haven't almost driven halfway to the moon or anything, but a lot is a lot, so HA!

The memory on my computer at work bites...I can't even run these two applications I need to run simultaneously w/o making my computer run at snail's pace. And almost as if on cue, as I was typing this section, my AIM went down...freakin computers...

Resolve...
has been brought to my blog/tag situation...you da man Joemama...big ups baby! Now I sleep...ahhhhhhhhhhhh

Crazy how right when I started coughing like crazy, I found a cough drop in my bag as I was packing to go home. God saved it for just the perfect moment...yet another reason it's great to be alive!!!!!!!! Peace!

This whole HTML shit is really weird...I've wasted almost 1 1/2 hours of work time just trying to place that damn tagbox thingy. Then when I thought I had it, my site all of the sudden turned into some Hispanic girl's blog site and I thought I totally f'ed it all up. Then the tears came, then I sat, took a deep breath, started over, and put it at the bottom...so until someone can help ejumacate my ass on this ish, then take it or leave it...but I'm excited, I have a tag box, yay!

HA! Thanks to Joemama, and repeated attempts by Jon A...my tagboard is up. Mind you, the site doesn't look very organized but hey, I'm a dumbass when it comes to HTM..whatever...

My fingers are freezing for some reason...hmmmm

oh yeah, I forgot to mention this earlier...

I was walking from the president's office to mine this morning and the hallway rug was turned up. So I totally tripped and landed on my face...to my wonderful fortune, Victoria, one of the receptionists was right there coincidentally looking for something...so now the whole office knows. It was so embarassing all I could do was laugh at myself. The most amazing things happen to me, I swear...

I am still a leaky faucet...

Mindblurps
I am so tired...this weekend was definitely exhausting. Taking care of the lil one AND pop is quite a lot of work and I don't think already being sick really helped much of that. But overall, still a good weekend. Didn't do much but spent a lot of time w/ pop. He's so stubborn sometimes, we spent a few hours fixing a leaking valve in the back. He wanted to do everything, but he couldn't...so we did it together...it was really cool...I think he really got a lot out of it, cuz he can say he accomplished something pretty big. He doesn't like doing his lil assignments from the OT people, but he needs to realize that he needs to. Again, it's tough to see your dad in that type of position. Hopefully, things that I say to him get through.

Short weeks suck, workwise. You already know it's gonna be a short week, although you should be thankful, you're somewhat resentful. Because already from the beginning of the week you're like, "It's a short week anyway, what's the point of being here at all?" And so begins the short week of resentment, not wanting to be at work...for only 2 1/2 to 3 days. So that's basically how I feel right now, maybe because I also have had practically 0 sleep over the past 3 days...

It's crazy when man realizes and accepts his mortality. Yes, we are all going to die...we don't know when for sure, but we know that it's gonna happen, one of those inevitabilities. But when you realize and accept this fate, then life becomes easier as far as getting things done. You don't always have tomorrow, cuz you don't know when your last tomorrow will be... Say what you want now, don't wait..

I hate finding out information from third party members...it really sucks because however little it SHOULD affect you, that's not the case...it begins to curb your thinking. You wonder... Yes, the only real solution is to approach the problem from ground zero, but seriously, it's not always that simple. It should be, but it ain't. So apparently, I am in a recent dilema with such a situation. I heard from a 3rd party member, 4th party, to be more specific, some information that actually affects my current situation. I have resolved to go straight to the horse's mouth and just confront it. Now I just gotta be given the opportunity to do so, udates shall follow.
Survival of the fittest...
I heard on the radio the other day some guy make a comment that small town america could live w/ out big city america but not vice versa...made me think. He was right. Big City America thrives on cell phones, business, shopping, travel, money, power, etc. We get everything taken care of by other parties...so in a sense we THINK we're self-sufficient. But in terms of survival...Smalltown America holds the ACES. They are TRULY self-sufficient. They provide everything they need themselves, everything they really need to survive. They don't need cell phones and all that stuff...and we rely on THEM to provide one of our most basic necessities...food.
If California, particularly Los Angeles were to sink into the sea tomorrow, of course Smalltown would mourn the loss, but then they could continue to go on, almost as if we had never even existed. What they need would still be there. However, if Smalltown were to get all of the sudden swallowed up whole, Bigcity America would be in chaos because we relied on THEM for our supplies...that's pretty ironic. We think we're so much better than them...

when I went out to lunch today, there was freakin dust totally covering my car...damn wind. I just washed it too...sucks

The lakers are finally starting to look like the Lakers again...thank goodness...all you haters...eat a phatty ass one.

"Life...is not made for the weak of heart"

Improvements?
Today's gripe of the day has to do w/ automated answering systems for all the companies, i.e. Cable companies, phone, what have you. And it is two-fold. Here's the first: So what's up w/ SAYING your phone number and choices and stuff...what ever happened to pressing the numbers? I feel weird yelling my phone number into the receiver and then saying my choices...YES, ONE, ETC. It's ridiculous...you can't do it quietly cuz the voice sensor thing won't hear you...and you can't do it if you're in a cube or something cuz your coworkers will hear you...so it proves to remain inefficient. Secondly: Why even have these stupid automated services when after you dial...correction, now SAY all your account info, dadadadadada, when you finally get connected to an actual person, you have to re-verify(if that's even a word) ALL YOUR INFO!!!! What the shit is that? It's a joke, a sick joke, but we can't do anything about it because we need to talk to someone to take care of our concerns regarding the said acct for whatever company. I can't believe people get paid to come up w/ these solutions. I'm gonna create a menu thing that you punch in yourself for drive-thru windows and then you have to pull up to the speaker and the worker person will verify your order, then you gotta pull up to the window and have it verified once more before you pay, and THEN you go to the pick up window and before they can give you your order, they have to verify one final time. Hell yeah, I'm gonna make bank for this....MUAH HA HA HA

Thought for the day
How is it I'm sniffling all day, yet when I try to blow my nose...nothing?

Today's office temperature...an uncomfortable 78 degrees...someone didn't turn on the AC.

"Laughter and tears, it's all a part of life"

I am the fire, burning the hole in your pocket...

The Good Life?
Man, I just spent almost $300 bucks for a stupid eye appt where they dialated my eyes, which WAS pretty cool, and gave me a semi-weak prescription for glasses I only need at night. And I realized, man it is really expensive to live healthy. I mean you're supposed to go to the Dentist 2x a year, an optometrist every 2-3 years, and the doctor, regularly. Just the cost of check-ups and other regulatory or whatever stuff like that are staggering. Then, even eating healthy gets expensive...I mean, there's no super healthy food for under a buck...all that shit is at MacDonald's and those other fast food chains. And even when it comes to rest, you should be sleeping comfortably, meaning, you should have a nice expensive mattress to sleep on. Basically, it costs to be healthy, and if you're broke...then you're just SOL (for those of us w/ lacking in the Acronymicalistic[made up word...of course] arts, it means sh#$ out of luck...yeah yeah, there should be TWO "o"s but I didn't make it up...send your compaints to www.whocares.com) man....how sad.

I'm a little tea pot
That's a ridiculous heading btw...but for some reason I feel that it fits...

You know, some people are just so immature it's sad. What is it about people that make them wanna act like lil kids when they're mad? And I don't mean having fun like little kids, because I think we ALL need to do that once in a while, but I mean getting mad like lil kids...ignoring, not confronting the problem, and being stupid and stuff? For goodness sakes, just face up to things that bother you...confront your situations...be assertive, get some balls. Really, get over it people. It's a grown up world out here...so grow up or get out.

My cousin that was supposed to come here like a month ago...has had yet ANOTHER delay in her plans. Her interview isn't until January fuckin 4th now. Damn, I hate how that whole system is so F'ed up over there... I don't even know why there's another delay, but there just is. So I talked to Mom today on the phone for like 1/2 hr at work and we're trying to set up a schedule for someone being w/ him at all times...basically she needs someone there while she's at work. And since I work during the week, I have the weekends. Mom's off on Tues & Wed...so pretty much Thursday, Friday, from 2 til when I get there, and Sunday when I have to leave back for Irvine need to be taken care of...shouldn't be so bad...and it's not forever...I can sacrifice a few months of weekends for the man who raised me...who always waited patiently for me...who turned me into the man I am today. It's not even a sacrifice... I just wish that he was self sufficient...not so that I wouldn't have to be home every weekend and not go out, but so that I can just know he's gonna be okay, cuz right now, we don't. One of his arteries are clogged, which the doctors determined probably caused his stroke...it's still pretty narrow so he has to get that taken care of. Things have gotten pretty bad for a lot of the people I really love and care for in my life. And although it is tough, you just gotta see through the rain and look for the sunshine. Things may be bad, but there ARE things to be grateful for, no matter what. Times like this that make me remember how glad I am to have God on my side.

I know I already complained once, but it is HOT outside. I'm telling you kids, AFRICA HOT. My thermometer in my car read @ 94 freakin degrees @ 1:00 today! Can you believe that? Someone TURN DOWN THE HEAT for goodness sakes! Made me think though, what if we got like 10 feet closer to the sun and we weren't aware of it. Yes, it's only a miniscule distance relative to the massive size of the universe, but the earth is spaced EXACTLY to have the current conditions we have...okay not like 10 but say like a mile closer, that would still be kinda hard to figure out...until it was too late, and even then, we would have no options...but to fry...yikes...let's not think about that.

I get to leave work NOW!!! Cuz I have to ship some stuff for calibration and it happens to be in Irvine...YAY!!!

I must have so much on my mind today to keep putting in entry after entry...maybe it's just cuz I talk too much, and since I'm in an office where I can't talk to anyone, this is my way to do so. Anyway, I've been checking out those sites my other friends have lately...man there is a huge world out there of people these sites...it's really awesome. But the more and more people that hit up your site, do you think the more and more you sensor things? I'm not speaking personally here, just a general wondering, of sorts. Cuz say you always vented on your blogs, when no one really knew about it, save for the the person who probably introduced you this crazy lil virtual world. So you always ranted and raved, bitched and moaned. But then you find out other people are finding out about your site, and they're telling other people they know, becuase that's just how life works...the bitching and moaning stops, because now you don't know you's taking a peek into your site during their workbreaks and what-not. Well that's just a thought. Well, If I bitch and moan about things, if the person I'm talking about is reading it, for anonymity is my game(I just don't like blurting out people's names and cause bias, so not knowing the people I'm mad about, crazy about, etc. is better), then they'll already know it was them. This isn't my hint machine telling people I might be mad at THEM...that's just ridiculous.

Fancy
Since we're on the topic of anonymity in talking about who's going on in my life...I guess you could say my eyes have been caught. So yeah, I fancy some girl, what else is new? Everybody likes somebody. But nonetheless, I'm caught. Mind you not completely caught, but caught enough so that while I'm working she comes to mind, and also, caught my mind enough that she would even be mentioned in a blog. The thing that sucks is that...remember how I was talking about hints and stuff?...well I don't know how to read signs and all that crap. Maybe it was me that was always bringing up the topic so as to find out from different people whether or not I've struck it rich or if it's fool's gold I'm looking at. I know that I should gather the nads together and say something already, and I do have them...I will act, but timing really is a very intricate and delicate matter here. You dont' take out brownies from the oven til that toothpick you put in comes out clean. You don't pull out clothes out of the dryer before the cycle is done now do you? You have to wait for the right time. You can seemingly jack a potential situation merely cuz you said something too early, too late, or whatever. But we'll just have to wait and see where this one goes I guess.

HA! How's that for long entries that are kept up at a reasonably normal rate?

Dude, why is it that right when you decide to start being healthier, such as going on a diet or something, things happen so you can't continue? I swear, I'm destined to be perpetually unhealthy. I wanted to starte working out again in the gym today, and running again and not eating as much. But then of course, I get sick, and of course when you get sick, dieting isn't the smartest thing to do, and also exercising is even worse...goodness. Watch, this sickness will last just long enough so that when I'm finally not sick anymore, I'll be too lazy to even get into that mindset again. But I am determined not to let this sickness be my downfall...I vow to be a healthier, and hopefully non-smoking human being!

I am the lil boy from the velveteen(spelling?) rabbit...

Ironic
Isn't it ironic that right when I talked about the whole, "...it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas" bit, the weather does an about face and all of the sudden it's heatwave 2002? What the hell is up w/ th@? I mean cold night to hot night(and I hate hot nights, weatherwise, of course) and searing blaring heat in the day? During the end of November? Goodness...and of course these drastic changes in weather may be indicators of an...I don't even want to say it....but, an earthquake. Things have been really weird lately, ants crawling up out of the faucet, the cold-to-hot change, everything. And it's contributing to my sickness, in addition to all this. Makes me want to learned more about meteorology than that one class that I took back in college...ha ha ha, back in college...

This lil game we play
Hints and games and stuff like that seems to be the popular topic of conversation lately. I must been engaged in at least 3 separate conversations about said topic in the past 2 1/2 days thus far. It's funny...I generalized men and women into one simple comparison. Men are like a 50 piece jigsaw puzzle where our lovely counterparts are like a rubix cube. Both are complicated, but one more than the other. It's funny this lil cat n mouse game...funny, and not so funny at the same time. It's a paradox that I'll never understand, but then again, I'll never stop trying to understand it either. Man, if I could only have Mel Gibson's powers from "What women want," Now that would be tight.

You know 'tis the season when KOST is already playing Christmas songs. Not like I normally listen to KOST or anything(shut up, I'm not that old) but I do have it on in the background when I'm trying to fall asleep, being that I have no CD player and that I don't wanna be hearing, "Is it worth it? Let me work it, put my thang down flip it and reverse it..."(compliments of missy misdemeanor Elliot) as I go into dreamland. Anyway, so I'm listening to said radio station when I hear, "It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas..." And I think to myself, NO IT'S NOT! It's not even the end of November! Not yet anyway. I can feel a change in the weather, it IS a little colder, and well...MAYBE, it IS beginning to look a lot like Christmas. Well as about as Christmas as it can look in Southern California. But I was totally surprised by that...funny how the radio has to remind you what season you're in.

Since the holidays are coming around, so comes the stress of Christmas shopping...so I continue to work on my christmas list...and shit...it's still blank.

Being sick sucks mad balls man. You just don't want to do anything. Last night I fell asleep in my car when I got home from work for almost an hour. What's that all about...then I slept at 10:30 til about 6:35...that's a lot of sleep folks. And still....SICK. Nothing helps...

Man, I just checked out my friends' blog and similar type sites and man, is mine pathetic. I guess simplicity has its downfalls, no? Geez check out their spots and it has their friends sites linked up to it, suggested spots all this cool crap that I wish I could put on my site but have not the knowledge to do so nor will have such knowledge for a long time coming perhaps forever(whew what a long sentence). But yeah man, my site sucks...people don't even sign my guestbook :( Ha ha ha, look at me, poor little pathetic blogger...HA HA HA Oh well screw those fancy shmancy sites, what I lack in presentation is made up in content! just kidding...my site is pathetic...period. he he he, I think that's pretty funny.

I am in a little bit of a bind. I don't wanna be spending so much money on Lunch since I usually spend money on dinner too. But I also don't wanna stay cooked up in my damn office for over 9 hours a day. Maybe I'll eat a light lunch and like take a walk to kill time...that way I can get outside, and not have to spend money on lunch so much. But there's the other drawback, eating lunch in the office and taking a walk calls for me being alone, and I can't have lunch w/ the lunch crew. Well I'll keep it all in a delicate balance, a little bit of this, and a little bit of that. So maybe once or twice a week I'll go out w/ the crew. Otherwise, it's leftover dinner from last night or samich time at the desk. That way, I can have my cake and eat it too! ha ha ha

I am a cottonball...

Dangit, I'm sick. I hate being sick. And a lot of factors have contributed to this ailment. Lack of rest, overabusing my body(like w/ drinking and staying up really really late), stress, and weather of course. This rarely happens to me so I'm not used to just sitting around waiting to get better...it puts a damper on what I need to do, but I guess at least by staying home I can clean or something, that's not too strenuous. So today, I plan to be productive in a not-so-strenuous way.

I'm finally gonna get an eye exam so that I can figure out what's wrong w/ my night vision. I don't really want to get glasses but if it's gonna be better that way, then I guess I should. At least if they're night glasses then I can just keep them in the car for driving and stuff...so it'll be my secret identity glasses man, at night.

I am Darius' tired old shoes...

What a weekend...I drank it up pretty good two days in a row...not planned...and not proud of it... I feel like doo doo now...yuck. No more consecutive partying for me. All I've been doing over the past few weeks is drink and eat, and not exercise....that's gonna come back to bite me real bad. I feel the weight coming on already. But the parties were good....I saw a lot of people i hadn't seen in a while and even met some really cool new people. Networked a lil even, danced a lil even, and had a lot of fun. Also took care of the fam this weekend, settling some future issues concering pop. We cannot leave him all alone just yet, because I'm scared he's gonna try to do something more than he should be and that will turn out to be quite bad. It's been stressin me out a lot and my sister, I think, feels that i have a lot on my mind though I don't say it. I'm just scared...cuz mom has to go back to work and we're trying to set up a schedule so that someone is always with him.

Pop asked me this morning if I knew how to whistle...and I do...and he doesn't....anymore. So I tried to teach him...I thought I was gonna break down. I know it's getting repetitive, but it's hard to see your dad in that type of position, really really REALLY hard. I took him and mom to go see a movie, "The Flipside," and that was cool...but I had to help him fix his pants in the bathroom...I wasn't embarassed or anything, I just realized how different life has become since August 31st. But don't get me wrong, I am so utterly grateful God has brought him back even to this stage and that i have not lost him yet. I guess I just really have been given a second chance to really not take my parents for granted, as I think so many people do a lot of the time.

I finally got a little exercise in today...played ball for about 2 hours at the park...felt so damn good...well felt so damn tiring, but I know it was good for my body... It was really cold too, so that actually helps in calorie burning. It's good too since, I'm trying to push all that damn alcohol out of my system.

So all in all it was a quite productive, fun, and intriguing weekend...but not as restful as I had hoped. Well I can take my rest during the week, I just gotta use a little more wisdom. So here's to a productive yet restful week. Pass on the multiple outtings and just take that time do the things I wanted @ the apt. Cleaning, organizing, and just chillin...

I hope to start my quit smoking program sometime this week. It's been hitting me and I don't enjoy the cigs as much as I feel I NEED it. But it's for a greater good...

"Some times the best road isn't the easiest road....take your path wisely."

I am elmo...with a flu...

WOWED
I've been so busy this week with work and stuff I totally forgot to mention one of my lil adventures w/ V this weekend. We were running some errands at target before going to the theater to promote the movie and I was looking for razors(Mach3 Turbo to be exact) but anyway, for some reason I couldn't find them. So, I voice it aloud and say, "Hmmm....I can't find the razors." Cue the woman in the aisle to turn around and say, "Oh, I think they're over there," pointing towards my left. When I saw the woman's face...I was completely "WOWED," and that hasn't happened in a very very long long time. Both me and V's jaws hit the floor. I mean I was just so completely mesmerized by her stunning beauty...seriously it was that elegance type of beauty too...you just want to take a deep breath and say, well, what else but, "wow." Man, I have not been able to get her out of my head for almost 4 days now....wow.

When you're sick, like you have a cold or something. Do things taste spicier? Because I had to make myself some soup earlier and it was spicy as heck...but normally I can drink that soup straight like it was regular soup. Not this time though, I was all sweating and my lips were burning. I guess your tastebuds are more sensitive during times of colds? But I thought your tastebuds kinda get weaker cuz people always complain when they're sick that it doesn't really matter what they eat because they can't taste anything anyway. Maybe I'm just a freak w/ weird taste buds.

Here's another quick thought...when you go to the bathroom...and I'm talking public restrooms and those at work, not private ones...well ones used by a lot of people throughout the course of the day...is it completely unsanitary to bring your drink in there? Even if it was far away from the toilets and urinals and stuff? Like on the sink or something? Are there just completely nasty bathroom particles in the air that can enter your drink or something? But then that's weird because women do their makeup in the bathroom...so they're wiping all the gross bathroom particles onto their face and stuff...ewww....I'm gonna stop thinking aobut this.

I took a nap in my office for lunch...damn, I was missing this @ my last job. Words of wisdom...take sleep in any way you can get it...any time, any place. It's worth it. I feel like I just came in to work after a good nite's rest!!! HA! Just turn off the light, put your feet up and close your eyes...

I am a the itsy bitsy spider...

What a predicament
Did you ever think it was possible for person to 1) Put their foot into their mouth ankle deep and 2) Not even REALIZE it? Well, believe you me, it IS possible. I have witnessed it on several occasions in recent history. It's just so funny, it's almost ridiculous...no it IS ridiculous. I'm sure I've done it before and I can only kick my own ass for that...but some people are just completely oblivious and don't realize how big a hole they're digging until they drown in their own crap. Cheers to obliviosity(and if you don't know that I already KNOW this ain't no word, then apparently, you don't know me...he he he)!

Just some thoughts...
My family has been driving me nuts lately...and again, as always I am playing the referree. I wonder sometimes if the only reason why I am in the MIDDLE of it and not on either side is because I'm not there...I guess that's good in a way, it gives me a sort of objectivity in all of these happenings. But it's ridiculous sometimes people's inability to or complete reluctance to COMMUNICATE. It's chlidish and I think you can only say it a few times before you go completely bonkers...just realize you've done what you can do and leave the rest to them....sadly enough, some people are better off apart...because of their unwillingness to bring matters to resolve.

The elections this past week were a complete joke. Lowest voter turnout in recent history(and maybe even history, but that matter is somewhat relative). People not liking either candidate, the method in which the two candidates campaigned(pretty much a complete smear campaign for both parties). People voting because they want to vote AGAINST someone...regardless of who that person may be. Democracy to an outsider must look like a complete fuckin joke. And I emphasize this most on the voter turnout...a RECORD LOW?!?!? People constantly have something to say and complain about...but they do nothing about it...they don't come out and vote...they don't make their voices heard...and i know there are tons of obstacles but nothing comes that easy...and if you don't speak, then let silence be your death. Mind you, I'm no flag waving, hand on my heart, PATRIOTISM RULES type of person, but I am a person that takes responsibility for my actions and thoughts...I take action on things which I believe need action to be taken.

I have been quite confused on many things lately. A little stressed no doubt, working in a new place can get quite daunting and the slope of the learning curve is a doozie...but other than that...I think just life has been confusing me lately. I mean, there was a time in my life when I had absolutely no idea about what I wanted and where I was headed...and things happened. Now that I feel I am really steering in the right direction and that I am getting a better grasp on what's good for me and what I want...nothing. Abyss... Isn't it ironic? You don't know what you want, and there's a million things infront of you to choose from. You know what you want, and it's not there?

"Love people while you still have them...."
-an awesome and inspirational friend

I am a sinking ice cube...

A taste of real life
Work this past week and a half has really given me a taste of what adult life really is gonna be like. It's taking me longer than I thought to get used to it...and I've really experienced stress on the job...but like a good friend told me over lunch several weeks ago, "Do not let work consume you." A nd I will not. I will continue to do what I can, and although at first, of course I'll have to put in more hard work than I normally expect, but not for an extended period of time. We'll see where this road is gonna lead...but only to good things, I think.

I am a foot(although I hate them) that is really really cold and socks can't even warm it up.

Hmph
I went to the store w/ my mom dad and London the other day. To say the least, it was a lot more difficult than I thought it would be. It was like watching a couple of kids in a candy store. London wanted to go here and there...and pop wanted to do everything by himself. He dropped some fish and the fish accidentally touched some woman, who in turn gave the dirtiest look to my dad. Oh boy, was I fumin when I saw this!!! So I offerred my apologies to no avail...and then decided to give the woman a piece of my mind and let her know what a bitch she was being, and she had absolutely no comprehension of my dad's situation...some people are just so fuckin ignorant it's irritating. Someone drops something and they're a dumbass...get some sense folks...not everyone is dealt the same cards. I guess ignorance really is bliss...huh?

New Guy
On the brighter side, the new guy, me, got to hang out w/ some people from work at Happy Hour(well it wasn't really happy hour) over at TGIF's in the Cerritos Towne Center. It was a lot of fun getting to know them all and giving them a chance to get to know me. 70 oz of beer later and we were having a grand old time and had a lot of laughs. I noticed that there was such a fine distinction between the management, and pretty much everyone else. I wonder where exacly I lie in all this craziness...but it was fun nonetheless. I'm glad that the people I work with are so cool, I mean of course everyone jokes about work, because it's well...work, but they emphasized a very important point...if they really didn't like it, they would not have been there, 2, 3 and even 8 years... I still get a lil surprised that I'm a grown-up, hanging with coworkers...ha ha ha.

Good times
After happy hour, I got the chance to hang out w/ a friend of mine and watch "The Ring." It was pretty good...good @ scaring you, but not really written incredibly well...but nonetheless it was a lot of fun. Like w/ food, guess good company makes all things better, because I had an incredible time, not only at the movie but even hanging out in the bookstore and playing, even just talking outside, and then talking again after. I haven't had so much fun in a long time for many reasons...

Thumbs up to...
-The Lakers, 2-2 baby!
-Looking for Waldo
-Allegiances

Thumbs down to...
-dirty looks
-ignorance
-drinking too much

"Be aware of your gifts...and do not put them to waste."

I am a candle at dawn that has been burning all night...

Halloween
I am so incredibly tired right now... It's a wonder I woke up at 6:30(thanks to the help of my two superfriends =p) Anyway, we hit up Harper's Bar and Grille last night...and it was fun because I 1) Got to dress up 2) Got to Dance 3) Got to drink and 4) Got to drink with my sister. Too bad two of our six'o got plastered and we had to carry them roughly 1/2 a mile to the car. Which probably contributed to my awesome fatigue. So another 9 hour day at work really isn't helping things...a big project just got dumped into my lap, high priority and I cannot think straight...looks like I'll actually have to bring home some work, but hey, it's all part of the new job and I welcome the challenge. But happyweek was hella fun...Nice to dress up and partay and act like a lil kid again...

Homecoming
I've been so busy lately that I haven't had the chance to mention that pop came home on wednesday. He's finally home, and I haven't been so happy in a long time. They say good things come in bundles, and that cannot be more true. So me and the fam went to go see him at home to welcome him and it was awesome. To think he had been away for 61 days, it was like he was never gone at all. I'm so thankful that God has brought him back to be with his family. I have never felt so much joy in just watching him do simple things like brushing his teeth....I was almost in tears when I saw it. Things really feel like everything's going to be ok. Welcome home pop.

Thumbs up to...
-Happy hour with the new guy
-Halloween parties with your sister
-possibilities
-morning wake-up calls

Thumbs down to...
-Giving a Piggy-back ride to a drunk person
-5 pieces of chile lime chicken for dinner and then drinking

"Take things one step at a time..."